i miss it

I kinda miss how things were.

How I had so many loving, caring friends.
How I could just tell people my problems.
How I was so friendly and outspoken.
How I use to laugh over nothing.
How I use to smile all the time.

Now it's so different.

I have no one I can turn to.
I don't know who to trust.
I'm so reserved.
I barely laugh.
I force myself to smile.

I ask myself everyday, what went wrong? Maybe it's karma. I never really appreciated what I had then. I just thought it wasn't good enough and acted like a sad shit all the time.

I usually brush the thought off, thinking this is just a phase and it will pass very soon. But sometimes, it's so easy to think that maybe it will be like this for a long time, if not, forever. I mean, I thought I was over this. Like 1 1/2 years ago? But I dunno.

I want to fix this. But I just don't know how.

It just makes me very sad.

and lonely.

she works hard for the money

Ok. So I finished all my exams and assessment tasks today!

Well actually, I still have an Extension English PowerPoint presentation due in one week but who caaaaaares. I'm free, I tells ya!

I'm going to receive $950 in my bank account from the government soon. Good ol' Rudd. I just don't know what to spend it on. Well, you're not suppose to SAVE it... that would diminish the whole purpose of the stimulus package. You're suppose to SPLURGE! Yet, I hear people are going to save it. Pay your bills and taxes people! Luckily, I have no bills or taxes to pay :)

I've been thinking about getting an iPod Classic. Or a new phone. I always wanted the Samsung F480.



Yeah...

I want to buy hair extensions but I would have to cut my hair into layers otherwise it would look funny, but I don't want to cut my hair. I don't want to wear them all the time but it would look weird without 'em if i do get layers. I just know its. I also want to buy contact lenses. I'm sick of wearing glasses all the time, it just gets in the way. Or maybe I should just buy clothes and shoes?

It feels better when I buy a lot of things instead of one or two things with a sum of money. It makes me feel like an effecient shopper :)

Yes, you can do a lot with $950 but at the same time, it's just not enough.

english

I went on the computer, planning to do work on my English essay but instead I'm involving myself in nonsensical activities. Blogs, online shopping, Youtube, eBay, you name it.

The internet should be condemned into eternal damnation.

I'm getting pretty sick of Shakespeare and his Tempest play. I must admit, I do like the play. Better than King Lear and Macbeth. But still. I've been hearing Prospero's name for the past 8 weeks. Can't wait 'til this test is over. Then on to the next topic: Journeys. YAYAYAYAYAYAY. How I hate English.

Basic Info

Name: Sophie
Birthdate: January 10
Birthplace: Bankstown, Australia
Current Location: Sydney, Australia


What's Your....

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Ethnicity: Vietnamese/Chinese
Favorite Food: sushi, nachos, ice cream, chips. I'm a junk food addict
Favorite Drink: lemon iced tea, orange juice and apple juice
Bedtime: varies. I try to sleep by 1 on weekdays.
Favorite Color(s): purple
Favorite Bands: too many to name
Favorite Genre: rnb, alternative rock, rock, electro, happy hardcore
Candy: Starbursts. Actually, I like all candy, 'cept black licorice
Favorite Animal: I don't really have a favourite animal
Favorite Store: General Pants Co., Sportsgirl, Bardot, Forever New, Valleygirl
Most Missed Memory: couple years ago..
Best Physical Feature: hmm, my eyes?
Overused Phrase: "i dunno"
First Thought Waking Up: "yay! school time!" note the sarcasm.
Weakness: shopping, shoes, junk food
Fears: cluster of holes/circles, bugs
School's Name: St Johns Park High School
Favorite TV Show: Neighbours, sitcoms
Major: -
Favorite Celeb: I'm not really into that stuff


Current...

Clothes: voodoo skirt, white singlet
Shoes: I don't wear shoes indoors
Make-Up: none
Hair Do: left down and gross
Phone: Nokia 6600, it's a brick. I've had this phone for 5 years. Time for a new phone?
Song: Simpsons on TV
Location: boyfriend's house
Weather: It's only 28 degress celcius but I'm feeling hot. And it's 6 PM!!
Website(s): This

marshmallow power!

Happy Saint Patrick's Day!

I don't personally celebrate it and I don't really know anyone who actually does but it says Australia is one of the countries which celebrate this day. I never knew that. I guess all they do is get drunk and prance around on the street wearing green, hey?

I wonder if leprechauns have anything to do with this celebration? I'm quite scared of them actually. I mean, I picture them to be mischievous, angry little creatures who wants to kill you for your valuables. Kinda like Chuckie. And if I saw one, they'd probably hop on my shoulder and pull my ears or something.

Yes I know, too much movies. But it's hard to think of them as that guy on the Lucky Charms cereal box. I wouldn't even call it cereal, they're freaking marshmallows.

"Hearts, Stars, and Horseshoes,
Clovers, and Blue Moons,
Pots of Gold and Rainbows,
and me Red Balloons!"

Why would I want these kinds of things in my cereal?! I'm no leprechaun.

Anyway don't forget to wear green, bring around lots of shamrocks and drink, drink, drink!

math

Math tests are the only tests you can make stupid mistakes in. Because of miscalculation.
It really bugs me.

damn you blogspot

I should really be studying for my 3 unit maths exam tomorrow but ze internet is so distracting! Blogs are distracting!

Adam

My boyfriend trying to act cute.

His gaming face.

Whenever he plays games, he always has his mouth hanging open. He says 'cause it gets intense. Sometimes I press his lips together but he gets annoyed because he can't breathe. Sometimes I sit next to him when he games and start taking pictures. He gets annoyed at that too because the flash makes him blink and he says he doesn't want to blink.

Boys.

i like the lighting in my room

i hate my baby hair

I was doing this for the past 3 hours when I was suppose to be doing my English essay. Man, am I good at procrastinating.

My sister and boyfriend says it's a noob job and it looks too fake. Well, what do you expect?! This is my second attempt of manipulating a picture in Photoshop. My first was a failure. I was trying to produce longer hair but it didn't turn out well.

The second photo was done for fun. It kinda looks funny all together, huh? I think it would look better if there were only one or two, not all three.

I would really like a pair of blue contacts and a labret (lip) piercing though :)

And yes, I hate my baby hair. My hair looks funny whenever I do a pouf because of the little bits of hair sticking out in front. I don't think I'll stop having baby hair either, because even if it does grow out, I will just produce more babies.

whoosh

It is raining incredibly hard and the winds are awfully strong.

i wanna throw up

I just found out there's a name for my fear of clusters of holes or circles. Trypophobia. It just makes my stomach churn and my mouth gag whenever I see this. Even seeing the word 'cluster' gives me the shivers.

My boyfriend keeps sending me links with pictures of these. He even put one on his display picture. What an a-hole.

You know that picture with the worm-larvae eggs on the nipples of the breasts? Well, I don't even know if it's true since it IS on that Urban Legends site. But anyway, I can't even look at it. It's too revolting. And some prick photoshopped the eggs onto some Asian girl's arms and legs. Like wth? What kind of sick person does that?! And yes, my boyfriend has that picture up on his display picture.

Anyway, I should stop talking about it. It makes me wanna cry.

wish

I wish I knew more about

fashion.

And makeup.

sick

I'm a little sick of The Tempest right about now.

yes, we are kawaii

my legs are silky smooth

I have no readers on here :(

Well, I didn't even tell anyone about this blog so... I guess that's the reason why?

load of crap

You Are Seductive and Ruthless

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. What's your hidden name meaning?

RAH RAH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

SO MUCH HOMEWORK TO DOOOOO!

SO MUCH TESTS ARE COMING UP!@@@@@

Bleh.

I mean, I don't really mind doing homework. It's just what we're asked to do sucks. The homework they give out is so stupid. It makes you not wanna do it 'til the day before it's due so you're not thinking about homework 'til the day before D: Which is gayyyyy! 'Cause then you'll think about homework all day and about how it's stupid and this is called procrastination. Then you think about why you didn't do it earlier and you realise 'cause the homework is nubs.

wedding bells

So I found a dress and some shoes the other day for the wedding. I wasn't sure if I was allowed to wear black to a wedding but I couldn't find any other dresses I liked and I didn't want to go shopping again D: I actually got the dress and shoes on a seperate day 'cause I couldn't find any shoes in Parramatta so I went to Liverpool the next day and went into the first shoe store and saw the shoes I wanted. Very lucky.

$50 - Forecast

$80 - Mathers

$15 - Equip

Yup, I spent $145. So much money :O And I owe my dad $200. No money for me for the next month :(

Anyway, it turned out to be okay to wear black.. a couple of ladies were wearing black. I guess it's just not good to wear white? I dunno. The wedding was in Bar Luck in Cabramatta and it started at 7.30PM. My friend picked up my boyfriend and I with his car. The bride was very pretty :) The menu was like any other menu at a Vietnamese function and the wedding was pretty small. I think there was less 200 people.

Everyone at my table was drunk by the end of the day, it was disgusting -______-". I was the only one who didn't drink besides another guy, since he was the designated driver. No one was able to drive my friend's car home since everyone drank. But my tipsy boyfriend ended up driving my friend's car and I was scared the whole way, telling him there was a red light or a person crossing lol. But we managed to get home safely.

All in all, it was an okay night.

cry, cry, cry

I'm stressing so much over what to wear to the wedding! I've been looking up on the net on what to wear and it's not of much help.

This is not good for my brain :/

*sigh*

My friend's mom is getting married this Saturday. Originally, I wasn't going because there was no room and I didn't mind really because I'm broke as. But he talked to his mom about who he's inviting and she told him to tell me to come 'cause I'll be an exception. She's so cute :)

Well, this is pretty short notice since I only got informed yesterday. I don't own any dresses for a wedding either, well any dresses to be exact. So I have to go late night tomorrow and find a dress, shoes and a bag. Aiyah. Waste so much money and on top of that, I have to give money to the bride and groom. I don't even know what to look for in a dress for a wedding D: I'm going shopping with my boyfriend too to look for his stuff, and I know he won't be of much help.

Hopefully I'll be able to find something cheap and nice.

My hair is so short and boring. It's hard to get it into the preferred shape I want it too. There's nothing I can do with my hair. If only I had hair extensions, but they're like $250!

I'm so poor :'(

Wish me luck for tomorrowz!

http://weem.deviantart.com

Even oranges have problems.

on consumerism

“Too many people spend money they haven't earned,

to buy things they don't want,

to impress people they don't like.”

- Will Smith

hidelly doodelly neighbourino

Didn't do much today. Woke up at 12, got to my boyfriend's house at 3.30 and really didn't do anything. The guys called us out to go for a drive at around 8.30. We drove around and met up with people. I got tired in the car at that point. I got dropped off at 10.

Yup, a waste of a day dontcha think? I'm getting sleepy now.

School tomorrow :'(. Well, it's already Week 6. How fast is that?? 5 weeks to goooooo, then holidays! Yayz0rz.

It's compulsory to bring our school diaries to school now. They check every morning in roll-call, and if you don't have it, they give you a pass for not having your diary. Dumb school. They really think this is going to make everyone use their diaries. Well, I do. But I always have.

Here's a pic of me and my sis on the bus earlier today.


Everyone mistakes us for twins, but we clearly do not look alike. Just 'cause we have glasses D: ! And everyone says she looks older than I do. Well, I can't really complain about that. Who wants to look old?

Chompin' Cheese

There's a blue, bald man eating a block of cheese. These are disgusting. They don't even taste like cheese. I don't know why I eat them.