When you try and don't succeed, what do you do?
Do you try again or do you give up?
It's a tough call isn't it?
I dunno...
I put my heart and soul into this but I ended up failing.
So I try again, hoping that I can do it.
It doesn't happen. But I still pick myself up and try again.
It's a continuous cycle... try, fail, try, fail, try, fail...
And yet, I still end up falling.

I don't know if I can try anymore.
I mean, how do I know when to stop hoping?
It feels like I have nothing left to give.
I don't know what to do.
I feel disheartened and really disappointed.
I feel stupid.

I just don't know what's going on anymore...
What the hell's happening?

The Lovely Bones

Loved this book.

It's a deal

(via)

Hah, cute.

I'm thinking of making a tumblr.

Flame haired

(via)

I'm considering dying my hair this shade of red.

It's subtle yet it still stands out.
I like that.

Toy Story 3

Can't wait!

Makeover

Contacts + Bar Fringe

Run, boy, run!

I can watch this video a million times and still find it funny
I know it's slack, but look at him run LOLOL.

A new start

School started yesterday.
Got most of my yearly exams' results back.
Advanced English was absolutely appalling. I was shattered.
Was pretty pleased with my other subjects.
At least it doesn't count towards our HSC.
This year is what counts. I'm going to work hard.
Must manage time effectively, no more cramming, no 'cbf' business, get plenty of sleep.
I don't care what it takes, what I have to sacrifice, what I have to do -
I'm going to do it.
It's the first step in determining my life path after all.

Scary? I know.

Grace Park

So I happened to come across this actress as I was on brutalturtle's blog.

Note: nudity under the cut - okay, technically there isn't any but for those lil youngins, don't say I didn't warn you and cry to your mommies.

Grace Park from Maxim
(via)

See, it wasn't that disturbing, was it? So don't get your panties up in a knot.

Anyway, she's a pretty girl.

Happy chap

Got my phone back,
bought a shit load of things,
donated 2 bucks to charity,
done my dailies on fb and
getting contacts tomorrow.

Life is sweet.

Holidays! Celebrate!

Exams are over. Holidays have begun.
A week ago.
Yes, I haven't been updating this damn blog.
'Cause haven't you heard?
Exams are over! Holidays have begun!
So obviously, I've been doing amazing, exciting things during my absence.

No, I'm lying.
I've done utterly nothing.
Except...
Play mahjong, eat, laze around Adam's house, play games on Facebook, watch movies, read.
Yeah, that's abouttttt it.

But I have to say, mahjong takes you on an oh, so amazing adventure.
And I don't mean this solitaire-pyramid type one:


I'm talkin' 'bout the real shit:

Guess which one I am.

It's a game for the 'pros':

- Wikipedia

And we all know Wikipedia is always reliable.

But it really is addictive.
In fact, I played last night.
And I was declared the champion.
(Thank you, thank you)

Oh, so I watched Up last week. IN 3D!
Damn right I did!
But the annoying thing was I had to wear the 3D glasses over my normal glasses, so it kept slipping off my nose.
And it gets smudged with fingerprints so badly.
But it was worth the suffering.
'Cause it was awesome!
Seriously, if you haven't watched it yet, GO NOW!


Look at the chubby, Korean kid.
It's funny already.

I watched G-Force too. IN 3D!
It was about guinea pigs.
Does that sound amusing?
Well, it wasn't.
'Cause they were special agents.
Wtfsicles.

Anyway, I wanted to get into reading again before I get busy with year 12 'cause I know I won't have any time.
I haven't read a book since last year.
That may not seem long to some, but it is to me.
And that book was Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer.
I haven't even finished it yet.
Just waiting 'til the movie comes out then I'll start reading.
'Cause I know I'll forget what the book is about and I'd like to know before I watch the movie so I can compare and criticize the movie's take on the book (I know, I'm mean).
Just like Harry Potter!
Yes, I was very disappointed with the HP movies, but you just can't blame 'em.
They have a budget to meet and no one would want to sit through a 6 hour movie. (I wouldn't mind though).

So, I bought a book the other day.
The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown.
I know, it's practically a crime for me not to read this worldwide bestseller novel yet.
I've watched the movie twice, and I liked it.
The story is so mindboggling. I love it.
And I have a thing for conspiracies. It's just so interesting.
And this story is full of it.
But as I'm reading it, I'm getting confused with the sequence of events and the information between the movie and the book.
Yeah.
They changed the book cover too.
I prefer the original one, but at least we can see what the "cryptex" and Louvre Pyramid looks like.

Books are quite expensive though - $20+.
But I'd rather own it than borrow from the library.
I don't know what to read next.
There's so many great books out there, I don't know where to start.
Do you guys have any recommendations?
I'm open to all genres, 'cept maybe sci-fi and horror, lol.

Anyway, there is only one more week left 'til I'm faced with pressure and all the other ugly things.
I'm talking about year 12.
This is practically my last holiday as all the remaining holidays in year 12 will be filled with studying.
And that's no holiday to me.
So I should make use of it while I can.
Yes, the shops are calling out to me.

Truly heartfelt

"When I'm feeling like there's no love coming to me,
and I have no love to give,
when I'm feeling separated from the world,
and cut off from myself,
and annoyed by every little thing,
because I'm not getting what I want,
I'll remember that there's an infinite amount of love available to me.
And I'll see it in you.

And I'll remember that I'm complete within myself,
and most of all,
I'll remember that everything I really need I already have.
And whatever I don't have will come to me when I'm ready to receive it."

- Will and Grace